i feel something..
jelous? i dont know, i dont even know how to spell it ahaha
it supposed to be a wonderfull thing to see your cousins-sisters achieved their goals (or other people la yg takkenal pun)
going to catch their dreams, here and there,

but watdehey did i feel just now?

im gonna be like u guys..
your life were so....smooth

but i dont know how..i just dont know
it's hurt to be compared, u know?


'how's ur friend's? mesti lagi tinggi kan markahnya?
'haaa dia boleh... so y cant you? apa yang beza?'
'young lady,look at them..so y cant you?'
'hey, look at this small girl, y cant u ha big girl?'
'dont u feel ashame seing little girls doing big girl's thing?'
'goodjob dear... ha kakak, look. he's a little boy. u?'
'taknak.. yours look weird, i bet i cant taste anyhing eee'
'gilalah weyy she's cooking weyy! bukak pintu beso beso aku taknak mati sedut asap!'
'fuyo kak, tak hangus ke tu? want some help dude? hakhak okeke jangan tumbuk'
'waaa seriously? u did that? omaigad cant believe my eyes'
'look ! she did it on her own! we shld post it on whatsApp'


oookay the last one were quite funnii ahahaha

.............

i know. the goods were for me too.
i know. they want me to be something.
i know. it's all for my future
i know.
but have u ever heard 'bad things change people' ?
yet, they'll never know

i just dont know how to
i do want to achieve something, i do, i swear i do
i do wanna fly and get out from this country like all the novels ive had read (ekeke)
i do wanna be a good girl.... ( im a barbie girl in a barbie world~)
and yes, im trying. and i dont need any compliment.

i just need some respect.